I’m ready for change again but this time it’s not in my education. I love everyone in my program and all the instructors. This year I’ve learned so much and worked harder than I ever have for what I wanted. But somewhere in my heart I need change in my life.

In fact, it’s my heart that needs that change. I want someone who treats me like a lady, not an object or a toy. I’m so tired of trying to get to know a guy and he just turns out like every other one. I’m tired of giving second chances. And most of all, I’m tired of being fed lines; empty, deceitful lines. I’ve actually become quite good at seeing through them, but occasionally I slip up and fall into their words.

The good thing about being so dedicated to my program is that I’m easily distracted from my loneliness. If I feel that pain deep inside, I simply work harder. But the nights are still cold and empty as I lay alone in my bed.